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Memorial created 10-8-2008 by
Debi Baker
Cassandra Leigh Baker
April 8 1985 - August 10 2008

IF YOU'D LIKE TO LEAVE A LETTER TO CASSANDRA, PLEASE SEND IT TO MY EMAIL AND I WILL PUT IT HERE, ALSO IF YOU'D LIKE YOURS OR YOUR CHILD'S PICTURE WITH IT, PLEASE ATTACH IT.

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October 5,2008

My Dearest Cassandra,

Oh my dear baby. I miss you so very much. I want to start out by telling you of the good things that have happened this week. We looked at a bigger house because our 1 bedroom house is just getting too small. I did handprints of the girls and Katelyn didn’t like it at all. Guess I won’t do that again. I am still having issues with the girls taking their diapers off but they still won’t use the potty. I really think that they are doing it just cause they know it drives me crazy. I am so proud of the girls…every night now, without any reminders….they give me hugs, kisses and the night and I love you, but then by themselves they blow you kisses, tell you night, love you and miss you. They do that when we are walking too. They are such good girls and they look so much like you; especially Cassidie. They both get that little smirk you use to do as a baby.

I am sorry, but I really haven’t been dealing with you being gone very well. My head tells me that you are really gone, but my heart just won’t accept it. I have never hurt so much in my entire life. I know that you called out for me to please come and help you and I am so very sorry that I couldn’t be there with you. Cassandra, there is such a huge hole in my heart. Courtney has left the area and went on her own way with Destiny and Elizabeth.

I don’t have anyone here anymore to talk to since you went away. I joined a group called “Grieving Parents” and I am so grateful to have found them because otherwise I am afraid of where I might be. People here say stupid things to me that just want to make me hit someone.......... some lady on the street that said, “I know how you feel, I lost my husband.”. WHAT??? Cassandra, I was so angry…..how is losing your husband anywhere close to losing your child. You were my first born daughter and now you are gone and I am so empty and lonely. I am trying so hard honey to be strong for “OUR” girls…..but I can’t lie to you……….somedays I don’t know if I can make it through this.

II just want you back here with me and honey I can’t lie to you…………if it wasn’t for the twins……….I would be with you right now. I love you and miss you soooooooooooooo much, the aching in my heart won’t go away. It’s not fair that you never got to get married. You had so much left here to do. I am angry with god for taking you and for taking you the way he did. D.A. sends his love to you as he does every Sunday when I see him.

Forever loving you

Mom

 

 

Monday, October 06, 2008

Dear Cassie, I dont know you either, but you are so young and pretty! I sponsor a website on Legacy.com, and when I saw your face I wanted to know more about you, well i found out your service was held on my son's 3rd birthday?! May you rest in peace beautiful angel...........watching over your kids and family.
 
Knows how bad it hurts to lose a loved one, chicago, Illinois
 
 

Monday, October 06, 2008

I have no clue who you are as I was looking a sites getting ideas and your smile struck me as one full of love. Rest in peace
 
Peg Kirby, Lincoln, Nebraska
 
 

OCTOBER 9, 2008
 
MY DEAREST CASSANDRA
 
GOOD MORNING BABY.  I AM SO DREADING TOMORROW.  I DON'T KNOW WHY, CAUSE IT'S REALLY NO DIFFERENT THAN EVERY OTHER DAY SINCE YOU HAVE BEEN GONE.
 
CASS, I HAVE TO TELL YOU......I AM SO, HELL I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WORD TO USE.  SOMEONE ANNON SPONSORED THIS SITE.  i WENT TO LOOK TO SEE HOW MUCH LONGER i HAD AND IT SAYS IT IS ALREADY SPONSORED.  SO THIS PAGE IS MY COMPLETE LINK TO YOU.  
 
I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH AND EACH DAY IS SO HARD WITHOUT YOU.  I REMEMBER IN AUGUST, YOU CAME AND COLORED YOUR HAIR IN MY BATHROOM AND GOT YOUR HAIR DYE ON THE WALL AND ON THE DOOR.  THOSE TWO STAINS ARE STILL THERE AND WHEN THE GIRLS SEE IT......THEY SAY, " OOH MOM.....SANDRA DID"  AND YES, THEY STILL SEE YOUR BURN IN MY BLANKET AND REMIND ME THAT YOU DID IT.  
 
PLEASE SOMEHOW SEND ME SOME KIND OF A SIGN AND LET ME KNOW THAT YOU ARE REALLY AT PEACE........IT HAS RAINED ALOT LATELY AND MY HEART TELLS ME IT IS BECAUSE YOU ARE CRYING BECAUSE YOU AREN'T AT PEACE AND THAT RIPS MY HEART OPEN EVEN MORE.
 
WE LOVE YOU BABY
MOM 
 

Hi Cassandra,

Welcome to Heaven, I hope you have met my son Joey there, he's been there since 2002.

You are a beautiful girl and the your children are adorable.

Dont forget to send your Mom lots of Kisses and Signs that you're at peace now.

Love, Terrie (Joey's Mom)

 


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Dearest Cassandra,

you will never, ever be forgotten as you have one of the most amazing Moms on this Earth.  Her love for you and your babies is evident in the way she speaks of you, and remembers your goodness.  Please watch over her, and keep her in your light.  My thoughts are with your mom and babies. 

The heart strings are never, ever severed. 

By Tina/ ;mom of Kayla Marie

 

Hi Cassie,
Have been reading the poems that your Mom wrote and they all brought tears.  I have such a hard time crying and you're being in Heaven       sure brings the tears.  Keep smiling down on your Mom and your children as they need to know that you are at peace.  I love you Cassie and miss you so much.

Love, Grandma

 

OCTOBER12, 2008

MY DEAREST CASSANDRA,

HI BABY.  TODAY I SEEM TO BE SO DAMN ANGRY.  EVERYONE SAYS THAT GOD HAD A REASON TO TAKE YOU FROM ME, BUT I CAN'T ACCEPT THAT.  WHAT THE HELL KIND OF REASON IS THERE TO TAKE SOMEONE WHO HAS SO MUCH MORE LIFE TO LIVE, WHO HAS CHILDREN THAT NEED HER, WHO HAS A MOM THAT NEEDS HER.  THERE IS NO REASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO LOGIC OR ANY ANSWERS AS TO WHY YOU WOULD BE TAKEN SO SOON OR WHY YOU WERE TAKEN THE WAY YOU WERE.  IT MAKES ME MAD ENOUGH TO MAKE ME LITERALLY SICK TO MY STOMACH.

I CAN'T STOP THE TEARS OR THE HEARTACHE.  I WANT YOU TO SEE "OUR" GIRLS GROW UP.  NICOLAS IS SUPPOSE TO COME AND SEE THE GIRLS NEXT MONTH AND I WANT YOU TO BE ABLE TO SEE HIM. 

BABY, I AM SORRY IF THIS LETTER SOUNDS BITCHY, I WANT SO MUCH TO BE POSITIVE FOR YOU, BUT SOMEDAYS I JUST CAN'T PULL IT OFF.  I AM SORRY.

I LOVE AND MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.

LOVE FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER ---------YOUR MOM 

 
LETTER FROM CASSIE
LETTER FROM KATIE
 

 

My Dear Cassandra,
 
This has been the first time that I think that I can sit down and write you a letter and to tell you what it is like to have you in my life. 
 
You were my first granddaughter and from day one, you took a special piece of my heart.  You were just a beautiful baby and as you got older, you just became cuter and cuter until when you became a woman and you became beautiful ( but still cute in my book ).
 
Then there were the times that you lived far away from where I lived and I didn't see you much.  Money was scarce and so there weren't a lot of pictures taken of you.  Then you moved near me so that you only lived one road over from me and I saw you everyday.  The smile that you always had was enough to melt anyone's heart.  And that smile was always there but a bit brighter when a boy had captured your heart.  When it didn't work out, you hung in there and kept that smile on your face although there were times the tears also came and that is okay.  I never did get that picture developed of you and that boy, whose name I can't remember, and I will always regret that.  But I believe that you have that picture in your heart.
 
Then came the time that you had children of your own.  And how you showered them with your love.  The girls are the spitting image of you, especially Cassie.  Nicolas is one handsome dude and all three of them are going to break someone's heart someday.  I know that you are watching from Heaven and see how they are growing.  I'm sure too that you have to giggle at Cassie and Katie and the things that they do.  They sure know how to drive your Mom up the wall but then all they have to do is smile at her and she is mush in their hands.  All 3 of them love the bird in the cage......lol
 
 
Well my dearest granddaughter, there is so much more I can talk about with you but I can write another letter and do that on another day.  Please, please be at peace and keep giving us signs that you are at peace.  I miss you so very much and I love you so very, very much.  As Sarah, my 4 year old granddaughter says to me, I love you from the dirt to the sky.
 
Loving you always,
Grandma


 

 

Dear Cassandra,
I only know you through everything your Mom has said and done for you on this beautiful Memorial she has created in your honor. I know she loves you very much and misses you like crazy. You have a wonderful Mom and I am so glad for the opportunity of meeting her, I just wish it could have been under different circumstances. I know you've met my Son Aaron by now and you two are probably very close friends. Aaron loved people and they loved him. He will be a true and loyal friend to you. And I will be a true and loyal friend for your Mom. We have been there for each other in our grief of losing you kids. Your Mom has really been there for me as I will continue to be there for her. Give Aaron a big hug from his Mom. And you send your Mom lots and lots of love and hugs from Heaven. She needs you. Well, sweet Angel Cassandra, I will end this by saying that I'm sending you and Aaron lots of love and hugs from here. Love you kids,
Lori Brewer (Aaron's Mom)
 

 Friday, October 17, 2008

MY DEAREST CASSANDRA.

I WISH SO MUCH THAT I COULD DELIVER THESE LETTERS TO YOU IN PERSON. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. MY HEART IS SO RIPPED APART.

I AM TRYING TO WORK THROUGH MY ANGER AT PEOPLE SINCE YOUR LEAVING, BUT I’M HAVING A ROUGH TIME WITH IT. I AM ANGRY THAT YOU WERE TAKEN TO BEGIN WITH…I AM ANGRY AT THE WAY YOU WERE TAKEN…..I AM ANGRY WITH FORD THAT THEY DIDN’T PUT THAT PART IN THE TRUCK THAT WOULD HAVE PREVENTED IT FROM STARTING ON FIRE. I AM ANGRY WITH BOTH MINE AND YOUR “SO CALLED FRIENDS” THAT HAVE JUST SEEMED TO TAKE A LEAVE OF ABSENCE FROM US. I AM ANGRY AT THE PEOPLE WHO SAY STUPID SHIT TO ME. I AM ANGRY AT MYSELF FOR ALL THE STUPID ARGUMENTS WE GOT INTO OVER STUPID SHIT. I WISH THAT I COULD CORRECT THAT SOMEHOW. I FEEL LIKE THE ANGER IS EATING AWAY AT ME.

I JUST WANT YOU HOME WITH US. IF I COULD JUST HAVE ONE MORE CHANCE WITH YOU, I WOULD DO SO MANY THINGS DIFFERENTLY.

HONEY, PLEASE KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND HOW VERY PROUD I AM OF YOU.

FOREVER IN MY HEART,

MOM

 

October 22, 2008

My darling Cassandra,

Hi baby.  Yesterday, I met another grieving mom; Steffi, and it was so nice to sit and talk face to face with someone and talk about you. 

The girls have finally quit "painting" the walls.  As soon as we get moved we will start the potty breaking. 

Honey, I miss you so very much, and I wish so much that there was something I could do to change the circumstances of my life now. 

All my love baby,

mom

 

October 22, 2008

Cassandra,

You have to meet some of these people that I have been meeting lately. They are freaking demented. You could send a few good ones my way cant u lol. Lets see... I moved to west palm beach for a job. It is pretty cool down here. I work in a modern atique store. They have REALLY nice things here. I haven't met anybody yet but I am still looking. As always lol. I need to make up my mind cuz I really don't know what I want lol. I know you know all this already but I miss talking to you. Why did you have to leave me? I really wish you would come back so I can show you all of this stuff and you can meet some of my new friends and tell me what you think. I am kinda mad at God for taking my Best Friend away can you tell him that for me. I know we didn't always get along but thats cuz we are family. You were the one person I went to when I needed advice or to talk. Who am I suppose to talk to now? I really miss you Cassandra and I love you very much. I want you to know that.

~Love always ~  and forever

Courtney Baker                                                                                                                           

                                                                                                                              

 


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OCTOBER 30, 2008

HI BABY,

WELL, I AM TAKING THE GIRLS OUT FOR HALLOWEEN TOMORROW.  THEY ARE GOING TO BE PRINCESSES; OF COURSE.  LOL

SORRY THAT I HAVEN'T WRITTEN MORE, HAVE BEEN REALLY BUSY TRYING TO GET READY TO MOVE INTO THE TRAILER ON SATURDAY.  I CAN'T WAIT...THE GIRLS WILL HAVE SO MUCH ROOM.

LOSING YOU HAS BEEN SO HARD HONEY.  I AM SO ANGRY WITH SO MANY PEOPLE, I AM HURT, SCARED AND JUST PLAIN LONELY.  FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS, I GOT TO SEE YOU EVERYDAY AND NOW  A PART OF ME JUST KEEPS THINKING THAT YOU ARE GONE FOR AWHILE AGAIN.  I KEEP EXPECTING A PHONE CALL OR A KNOCK ON THE DOOR AND IT BE YOU.  I JUST DON'T SEE MYSELF EVER STOPPING THINKING THAT WAY.  IT JUST DOESNT SEEM POSSIBLE THAT MY FIRST BORN DAUGHTER, THE FIRST ONE TO GIVE ME A GRANDCHILD IS GONE.

I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH.  WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE FOR JUST ONE HOUR WITH YOU AGAIN TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU KNOW HOW VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU AND HOW VERY PROUD YOU MAKE ME.

ALL MY LOVE....MOM

 

 

 

 

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

MY DEAREST CASSANDRA~

WELL, WE ARE MOVED INTO THE NEW HOUSE AND IT IS WONDERFUL….THE GIRLS HAVE ROOM TO MOVE AND PLAY INSIDE AND OUTSIDE. THEY LAY DOWN FOR NAPS MUCH BETTER BECAUSE THEY KNOW THAT AFTER NAPTIME IS OUTSIDE PLAYTIME.

I HAVE PUT THEM IN SEPARATE BEDROOMS TO SEE HOW THEY WOULD DO AND WOW….WHAT A DIFFERENCE. BEDTIME AND NAPTIME ARE NO PROBLEM. IT HAS MADE ME REALIZE THAT CASSIDIE USE TO REALLY KEEP KATELYN UP A LOT LOL

I AM HOPING THAT MY STRESS LEVEL AND MY PATIENCE WILL CHANGE NOW THAT WE ARE MOVED IN. WHEN I AM FINISHED WITH EVERYTHING YOU WILL HAVE A WONDERFUL WALL OF JUST YOU.

THE GIRLS DID WONDERFUL WITH TRICK OR TREATING….I WAS SO PROUD OF THEM. WHEN THE PEOPLE WOULD HOLD THE BOWL OUT TO THEM…THEY EACH TOOK ONE PIECE AND THEN SAID THANK YOU.

WELL BABY, I LOVE YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH AND I MISS YOU AND THINK OF YOU EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF EVERY SINGLE DAY.

ALL MY LOVE FOREVER

MOM

 


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Sunday, November 16, 2008

My dearest Cassandra,

I am so sorry that I don't seem to be handling things very well.  It's like I have fallen into the big pot of depression and I can't reach the sides to pull myself up.  Please don't worry, I am making sure our girls are well taken care of and they are happy.  The adoption guy came on Friday the 14th and things look good.

It has been almost 100 days since you left and I miss you so very much honey....and I need you as much as I miss you.  I want to wrap my arms around you and just hold you and never let you go EVER.  I am having a hard time with the fact that I will never hold you, kiss you, tell you I love you, hear your sweet voice or your contagious laugh again. 

I LOVE YOU, MISS YOU, NEED YOU, AND WANT YOU HERE WITH ME!!!!! MY  IS COMPLETELY !!!

 

 

 

 

CASSANDRA~~

MY HEART ACHES SO MUCH TONIGHT.  I MISS YOU SO VERY, VERY MUCH AND I STILL JUST CAN’T COME TO GRIPS WITH ALL OF THIS. MY HEAD TELLS ME THAT YOU ARE NOW IN HEAVEN, BUT MY HEART JUST WON’T ACCEPT THAT YOU ARE GONE. I’M AFRAID THAT ONCE MY HEART REALIZES IT THAT I WON’T BE ABLE TO GO ON.

I HAVE NEVER NEEDED ANYTHING AS MUCH AS I NEED TO SEE YOU AGAIN, NEED TO HEAR YOUR BEAUTIFUL LAUGH, NEED TO SEE THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE, NEED TO HEAR YOU SAY “I LOVE YOU MOM”.

I AM TRYING TO FUNCTION ENOUGH TO GET THROUGH THE HOLIDAYS FOR THE GIRLS SAKE, BUT IT IS SO VERY HARD HONEY. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO BE JOYOUS.

IT JUST SEEMS LIKE EVERYTIME I START TO STAND UP I GET KICKED IN THE TEETH AND KNOCKED RIGHT BACK TO THE GROUND.

I AM ENCLOSING THE LYRICS TO A SONG THAT IS FOR YOU BABY. I FOUND THE SONG TOO, BUT IT PLAYS ON YOUR “ACCIDENT SITE” PAGE.

I LOVE YOU SO VERY, VERY MUCH.

LOVE FOREVER AND EVER

MOM

 

 

 

 

Homesick"



You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now
 

 

HI BABY.  THINGS JUST SEEM TO KEEP BUILDING UP AND UP FOR ME.  SOMEONE IS STEALING THE STUFF AT YOUR ACCIDENT SITE THAT I SENT UP THERE FOR YOU.  SAYING THAT IT MAKES ME ANGRY IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT.  MY COMPUTER HAD ISSUES THE OTHER NIGHT SO ALL THE LETTERS THAT I HAVE WRITTEN TO YOU ARE GONE.   I SURE COULD USE ONE OF YOUR HUGS RIGHT NOW. 

CASSIDIE IS DOING SUPER WITH HER POTTY BREAKING.  SHE GETS SO EXCITED AND RUNS FOR THE BATHROOM SO SHE CAN DUMP HER POTTY AND FLUSH THE TOILET.  KATELYN GOES ONCE IN A BLUE MOON, BUT SHE JUST ISN'T FULLY READY YET.

CASSANDRA, I FEEL SO ALONE ANYMORE.  IT'S LIKE IT'S ME AND OUR GIRLS AGAINST THE WORLD AND I'M NOT SURE SOMETIMES HOW MUCH FIGHT I HAVE LEFT IN ME.

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AND MISS YOU AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU.

LOVE MOM

 

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12/10/08

WELL MY DARLING CASSANDRA~~IT HAS BEEN THE LONGEST 4 MONTHS OF MY LIFE.  THERE IS SO MUCH THAT I STILL WANT TO DO WITH YOU AND SHARE WITH YOU.  THERE IS STILL SO MUCH THAT YOU NEED TO DO.  I FEEL SO EMPTY AND SO ALONE.  YOU WERE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS GAVE ME A HUG AND TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME BEFORE YOU LEFT TO GO SOMEWHERE.  I MISS THAT SO VERY MUCH CASSANDRA..

I LOVE YOU

 

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